your thoughts, my mind

It has been 5 days ever since I announced that i won't be coming back for some time. However, i have decided to update regularly as usual as the events had been clearing up over the past 2 weeks.

I shall start with Monday, 16th Nov.

Obviously, every Monday i have to helpout at the bookshop the and of cos i have to reach school by 9am. I continue to stay in the library as per normal but i went out to get the scrubs for Outreach.

My memory is failing, please forgive. (:

Tuesday, 17th Nov.

Finally, it was the end of the outreach. I can have the freedom that i want! I no need to worry for the weather and manpower list. Although it was quite chaotic in the morning, for those who passed-by pls don't mind me, Mr Hanif and the committee had always been around to help me. Thank you teachers and councilors! :D I know it is way too late to say all this, but this, a very big thank you to all! Hopefully, you guys had rest well after the whole three days. :)

Wednesday, 18th Nov.

Another helping out day of mine at the bookshop, as Aaron need to help at his aunt's company or something? Yea, so i had to take over him. I also can't stay in the library, as the teachers are having mass meeting in the library which students were not supposed to enter.  So after that, I went to Bukit Batok Civil Service Club to have bowling session with tingwei and friends. Of cos, there were pictures being uploaded on blogs and facebook but i was lazy to get from them. For pictures, please view Tingwei's blog. I only had a chance to play one round as i came at a later time due to work. However, i am looking forward to another bowling session with Tingwei and Auntie Anna. Very soon after that, we walked to Westmall's foodcourt to get some bites because everyone was hungry.

Thursday, 19th Nov.

At first, i thought i was able to have a rest day to myself but not that i realised until someone told me, that I need to watch the girls for WKW's practise. So yeaaaaaaa, i headed to school at 9am again. They were crazy, i have to admit that. The Green Mango Salad and the Burger were absolutely delicious.

Friday, 20th Nov.

One last practice, before the girls had to cook for the competition. While they were cooking, I went to Student Council and helped. Mistakes were spotted after cooking when i was back at Girl Guide. I just felt that some times, we took things for granted and caused us to miss it. At night, we went to ShengSiong and NTUC to get the ingredients that we need the next day.

Today, 21th Nov.

Two events are running at the same time but different places. One was the West Division day which was held at Commonwealth Secondary School and the other one was the Wee Kim Wee's Challenge Shield held at the Camp Christine. A very big thank you to Eric, HongJiong, ShanChun and Ziwei for coming down and helping us to load and unload the things. To Fangyu, Jingyi, Jocelyn and Willyn, i don't know whether if you all were to see this but i am still gonna typed it here, I still think that you girls did great, just that i am not strict with you people. Do not stop here, take it as a learning process to move on and try not to make the same mistakes when you are meeting the same things. Good luck girls!

I am left with open house, on the 28th Nov, and De La Salle's campfire night, on the 2th Dec. After that, i am going to be so free that i really need to start practising my math and more math questions.

I need to rest now, i will update more somewhere.... after today :D

I'm sorry.

Gone with the wind to somewhere and will be back in some time.

I will post that at the later part of the post, let me finished about today's programme.

Basically, today I woke up for girl guide at 0800. Surprisingly, Weiting called me asking me if i am free for helping out at the bookshop. So i told them i am not going for girl guide and went to help. I am so happy! at least i had something to do. However, what worries me was the homework. So yea, i am going to finish the assignments that are needed to be handed in tomorrow. I don't want to be chopped when i go back to school.

After so much thinking, after what he/she had told me, I seriously don't know how to react to it. I apologised because i felt that i am in the wrong but what really bothers me was another thing. Maybe i am really not up to standard, i have to admit that. Maybe you are telling for our own good, or you really are. Or maybe i should tell myself that, maybe your intentions were good but the way you told me was off-way? I don't know, i really don't know. I sincerely hope that you will accept my apology.
I'll learn.

We am going to finish that game soon.

that sudden urge to express my feelings here again.

My mood went up and down again, i am not sure if it is due to the weather, .... or even things i've gone through on the 9th.

I know it is not a good thing to dwell on things that are not good to be remembered but it seems like i just can't get rid of it from my mind. I am going to dump it everything here, so don't ask me anything alright? as in don't worry for me, when time is right, i will tell if i can't take it.

Firstly, i am just praying hard that it won't rain on the 11th and the 17th. I want the program to run through smoothly.

Secondly, it is not that i want to bring up the topic again. I really just don't get why must you be like that. I don't know whether you are on purpose or you are just purely asking. It somehow just humiliated me after the whole thing has ended. Maybe i am not a good person in making decision but i can tell you i will learn. I am not good at pretending on disliking a person but if you really drive me to the maximum, i will show you my maximum on pretending. People are telling me to don't care, ignore, blahblahblah. I tried but i am not those kind who will let go so easily and i need at least a period of time to think over again. I am not as perfect as you.

I just don't know how to put it okay. Why can't you people just be yourselves instead of backstabbing people? Looks may be one thing but once you know the inner, you definitely disappoints you a lot if he/she is your peers who you trusted. I am not good at judging people and it is also not good to do that. Gahs.

I shall continue another day. bleh!

Well, well, well.

Yesturday was ok-ok except for the weather in the morning. It totally drove us crazy when we saw the drizzling. There was a slight delay in the programme but we still managed to catch up. I sincerely praying hard that tomorrow morning till afternoon it will not be raining. If not, we have to entertain them.

thats all leh, how? >